Big Thangs Poppin

Today's Mood: Fabulous

Ok where to start?

I indulged myself last night with sushi and wine. And a little more wine. It was excellent. I got in the bed fairly early and slept like a baby. This morning, I woke up refreshed-ah the difference between real wine and that stuff in a box...I digress...lol

I checked my email from my cell, why? I dont know. I never check it in the morning. What do I see but a LONG email from Olivia. It was asking for more input from me and offering much more support! Of course it put a huge smile on my face. So I bounced out of bed like I was 21 again and headed in to work. Yuck. Ok, I admit that I am over this job. But, I will hang on to it until something better, equal, other comes along.

So Im sitting here pissed because my big boss is being a butt...a sure sign that Im heading out the door, but still dont aggravate me while Im on my way...lol As my brows furrow deeper, I get a call on my cell. What tha? Its a San Fran area code, not a bill collector! So I answer and lo! Its the owner of Olivia, calling to see how Im doing!! Making sure that Im ok. WOW! So now I ask myself, am I about to kick off and somebody called Make-A-Wish Foundation on my behalf? I don't think so.

After a while I was able to close my mouth and stop drooling. I love those girls over there soooo much. They seem to know exactly when Im getting irritated. Dealing with these black women is often a trial. A royal pain in the buttocks. But they are really reaching out. So now I have to find a couple of other women of color who-the horrors-get an all expense paid 7 day cruise. The bad part is I don't want to find anyone who is already booked because that would be stupid. They would have to get a refund. Most of the people I know are already booked. So I have a little work cut out for me.

Guess what else? I heard from CD. She has been downgraded from Baby-lol. Our communications have been like two strangers. And thats being generous. I dont think she ever loved me, I think it was infatuation. Oh well, Im not crying about it. Thats the way life is. We are all wired with a defect-we do not have that chip that lets us discern what is real love and what is bogus until we are done with the person. I know I loved her, I know she was the first person I truly loved. Too bad.

Im smart enough to know that my heart has to break a few times. Karma owes me for the hearts Ive broken and the things I have done that were not right. I guess Im in trouble because normally I dont invest any of my inner self in these relationships. I went all the way with her, and a little deeper than normal with G. Im glad I have had the space to throttle back now. Hopefully my wall is reinforced now and I dont have to worry about ever getting hurt again. At least not for a while.

Ah life is good for now. I will keep you posted as new things transpire.

Til lata,

D