Is It Really Thursday?

Today's Mood: Fine...Fine...FINE!

Ok Blog. I think its time for me to make a trek over to the shrinks couch. I am totally losing my mind. I have to admit that I may be bipolar or have multiple personalities. LOL

Im kidding but the reason I say this is because I feel great and I feel yucky at the same time. Im happy. My funds are fine. My career outlook is fine. Im in a great mood. At the same time Im still kinda blah about my love life. Im kinda lonely but not seriously-sadly lonely. I guess horny is more appropriate...lol. I want the human contact but not badly enough to actually want to deal with someone.

How crazy is that? I mean, really? What options am I leaving myself? None. I could put a rush on ole girl and make her fall for me but I dont want to. Im not going to try to shape her into the perfect person for me. I know Im not physically that attracted (I can barely remember her name most of the time) so why even put any energy into that. If we go out and have fun, cool. If not, cool.

Shai keeps calling, like its ok? I dont understand. I know that she still has feelings, it is soooo obvious. A part of me still has a little something for her, even though she killed my heart. I am not considering going back there, and she is not offering. Do we work as friends? Time will tell. Better yet, why even be friends? We never hang out together. I never see her unless she comes to me. Her friends hate me, my friends hate her....lol. What do we get out of calling each other and stuff? Sigh. This sux. Why even bother?

I have a confession. There is this chick moving to houston in a while (of course she has a friend here but I think she will see how crazy the girl is in short order). Im putting her on my simmer list. She is at least on the surface what Im looking for. By the time I get myself right, she might be worth checking out.

Im starting on my self improvement kick. I have got to get some of this weight off NOW. I wish I could have lipo but thats not an option. lol. Im starting to work out. I am going to start walking next week. I have to, its not an option. My health has always been great, but Im starting too have some slight issues. Not cool. My family has a history of stuff popping up out of the blue and knocking them dead. Quickly. I dont want that to be me. Of course I am the only one who doesnt smoke or eat a lot of red meat, pork, fried stuff. I dont drink excessively either. Im not perfect but my lifestyle is a lot more healthy than theirs.

Alright, so Im going to track my weight loss. First weigh in will be not this Monday but the following monday.

Talk to you tomorrow. Yay Friday.

D