Another Day

Its another day in the life of me. I have had a lot of time to think about this situation. After last night, I have been contemplative, wondering what is happening in my world, what to do, how to resolve the situation that I find myself in.

I spent the whole day working hard on projects with my headphones on, letting my favorite songs lift my spirits. I talked with a couple of friends. Its hard sharing my fears and angst with others. I don't want to be that whiny girl who is moody one day and all gaga in love the next. I don't want them to think badly of her if we do work it out. But its hard. Its so hard to be in this place alone. Sharing helps.

I feel numb today. Im not really sad, Im not happy, Im just here. My day is just here. Things have to get better, I feel like I am becoming a shadow of myself. Im usually so happy and full of joy. Today, if I could stay in the bed, I would.

I am only allowing myself a few more minutes of self-pity. This is not who I am. I have to find something to hold onto, to pull me out of this funky pit. Love sux.

Anyway, since I am boring myself, I will end today's post right here. Tomorrow will be a better day. I will be stronger and have all of my armor in place.

Til then,

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