Bored and Buzzed

Today's Mood: Chilled

I'm relaxed tonight, after 2 glasses of the very great wine find that I stumbled upon. Of course right now the name of that beautiful ruby elixer eludes me...I will fill it in later.

Im feeling good tonight. My medication is working to alleviate my high blood pressure. Im also feeling good about my relationship-if I can still call it that. I listened to her talk for 2 hours this morning. Two hours straight...My input encompassed about 15 words in 2 hours. I am so proud of myself because I did not interject at all. If I did, it would have ruined everything. As it stands now, she is content. I have to learn not to say anything-not to agree or disagree. It makes it much easier on me. Yes, I will have a long lecture, but at least it wont lead ot histrionics and tears.

Life is so weird. Im concerned about my ex. I haven't heard from her. Last night I had the craziest dream that I was trying to get to her in Houston from Cali-first I started out in a car, then I was on a bike. Many things kept popping up to keep me from her. I am afraid that she is in trouble or suffering. She hasn't answered my texts or calls. Hopefully she is partying it up somewhere outside of the country and cannot be reached. I will try her again tomorrow.

I miss my new friend, A. We have been having fun email correspondence over the last few days. Its nice to have a platonic friend or two that think you are interesting. I miss that.

Im gonna cut it short tonight, even though I skipped last night. I am more concerned about my ex than I want to say, the wine is hitting me, and as I listen to her snore, I feel a little lonely. The embrace of sleep will comfort me. I wil be fine as I drift on that black, satiny wave into the blissful oblivion of nothingness and everything.

Good night!

d.o.