Fickle?

Today's Mood: Decent

Today is going to be an aight kinda day, I think. I woke up in a good mood. "G" (not J-lol) called me early early to make sure I didnt oversleep. I thought that was sweet. Normally I would start waving the stalker flag but she is pushing jussssst enough, not too hard. We talked a lot yesterday about real stuff, not just flirty & light stuff. I found out a few things that make her tick and I let her in a tiny bit.

I am not anywhere NEAR ready to open up to her or anyone else. Baby and I are drifting apart-slowly but obviously. For me, its like watching it on tv. I think I detached myself last week when we had blowup # 150000. We have talked and talked about giving her space to work on her relationship but honestly I was getting enough from her emotionally that I didnt care what she said. I made sure to keep myself in her periphery. I would give her an inch of space then crowd right back in.

Im thinking that this time, I am the one who started wanting more from her than she could give. I think I decided that I needed something else. When we pulled back at the same time, nobody was willing or able to reach across the void to draw the other back in. So we drifted out of arms reach. The feelings are still there, but the distance is making them feel less powerful.

This leads me back to G. I am not falling in love with her or anything. Actually I dont know what I want to do with her but its so early in our whatever that I don't have to worry about it. I am proceeding with caution.

I guess thats about it for now. If there is anything new and earthshattering I will let you know.

Toodles