Finally Friday

Today's Mood: Happy, Sad, Nervous

Lets see. I missed yesterday because my bootleg computer was acting up. Sorry. Lets talk about everything that is going on.

Work: I am so torn about taking the new job. My boss is making it difficult. He counter-offered and tossed in more incentives. I just can't do it. I was walking to the snack machine and it hit me again how much I hate this place. I love my students and my coworkers, but the job itself sux. I do appreciate how awesome they are being to me and I do see that they recognize that I am a valuable employee. I guess that counts for something. It makes me happy.

I am terribly nervous about taking on the new job. Im entering a foreign land. I have to be trained. What if Im too old or too stupid? What if I can't cut it. There is always a job at McDonalds... I think Im kinda looking forward to the challenge. I want to see if Im all that or if I have just been lucky. Its going to be hard to go from being one of the top dawgs to being a little peon.

Why am I sad? Im sad because I haven't had enough time with my baby. She has been mad busy the last few days. I guess coming off of our wonderful weekend, I am going through withdrawals. She is still there, we are still in love. Nothing negative is between us. I just miss her so much. Too much. I love the fact that even though her days are swamped, she still makes time to call or text whenever she can.

What is so weird to me is that in the past, I wouldnt even be able to discern the effort she makes to keep me happy. I also would not have noticed that she does this because she wants to spend time with me, not just to appease me. I know our limited time to play is tough on her too.

What about the other chick I was seeing? Well she is still tripping over the time she saw me with my Baby last weekend. Oh well. Thats her bad. Its making me nervous because if she is acting all nuts after 2 platonic dates...psycho tendencies. We are scheduled for a conversation sometime this weekend, and I guess that will be it.

Im starting to work on a play. The ideas are clicking into place. I think it will be interesting. I just have to map it out, and think of a way to make it different, funny, unique. There are 50 million different plays out there that make no money and are so ghetto. I don't want this to be one of them.

This is another not-so-deep day. Im just floating along. Happy with my relationship (or whatever it is), dealing with the changes. Content. Lets hope it stays that way.