Wack Wednesday

Today's Mood: Hangin....

I am SOOOO BORED. Im not only bored with work but bored at home too. Im doing very little here in my last few days at work. I have nothing to do. There is no need for me to build a rapport with any new students so Im farming out new leads to my coworkers.

I have spent the last hour working on Olivia stuff. The more I work on it, the more frustrated I get. Dealing with black women is a pain in the azz. I am so sick of the crab in a barrel mentality. Why cant we work together to make things happen?

I am suffering from too much coffee. Im so high right now and I cannot sit still. They shouldnt keep it so friggin cold 'up in hurr' lol.

Love talk? Well my Baby continues to bring me joy. Yesterday she told me she had a full day with her job and her wife, so I wouldnt hear from her until late today. I pouted and resigned myself to flying solo for the majority of the day. I even set my alarm clock to wake me, something I havent done in months because she always starts my day off with a smile.

This morning, I was laying there (pouting still) and she texted me! I was so surprised and happy. She also spent a lot of time with me today, unexpectedly. I have always begged and pleaded for my partners/lovers to LISTEN to me. I do not ask for a lot. I am so appreciative of the little things. She does that so well. She hears what I say and what I dont say. Amazing.

Im enjoying getting to know her. I think that her situation is actually making things go more smoothly between us. In my experience, when you do the long distance thing, or even the new dating thing, you get all caught up so fast. In our community that is the running joke. What do lesbians bring to the 2nd date? A U-Haul. whatever. But knowing that she is in a relationship makes us keep things in some miniscule perspective. I mean, we are out of control but we do pump the brakes when things get to be too, too much.

Instead of causing problems, it is allowing us to get to know each other slowly. To learn the other's good, bad, and ugly. We have to move slowly, and not get caught up in the newness.

So today, Im loving her more than yesterday. How is that possible?