Final Entry For Now

I have to take a little break. I have a lot of things going on that will take up my time. Wait, no, I vowed to be honest.

The truth is that Im even getting tired of reading about my drama. Im tired of sharing my innermost, most intimate self. It matters not what I say or do, people will still form their perception of me and of my actions based on their own realities.

I will say that opening up myself is so hard for me. Letting people know how soft I am, how vulnerable...Putting myself out there so that they can see how much I care....It just doesn't work for me, I guess. They still see my outer strength and translate that into something that makes it easy to handle me in a less than gentle way. They forget that I lead with my heart outstretched, that my feelings are tender, and easily bruised. They forget that I dont often get angry, I get hurt. My openess, my honesty-it all morphs into something else when its processed.

Im tired. Who gives a dayum anyway. At the end of the day, my feelings are inconsequential and don't really affect anyone else.

Bye.