Tired and Trifling Thursday

Today's Mood: IRRITATED

This has been the longest day in history. I am in a horrible mood. There is no major reason for it. I had great news from Olivia Cruises today. They are going to use me more fully to promote in the African American Lesbian community. I am going several places and gaining tons of new skills. I really look forward to seeing whats around the corner with that.

The other side, love life.....Im not even talking about that. Im not happy with her today. I know, yesterday I was loving her more than sushi. Today, I still love her but I am so...LIVID because she...well she hurt my feelings by being a typical tomboyish female. They do not think about feelings or stuff like that until its too late and they are in the dog house. What makes it worse is I know she is not even worried about it right now. She is totally focused on what she is doing. So Im sitting here pissed and she could give less than a dayum. At least thats what I think. Who knows? I won't know because she cannot find a way to spend 1 minute with me until sometime next month.

What really hurt is when she was outlining her day, explaining why she couldnt spend a half a second just to text me, and she said she had to talk to her girlfriend....Ok I know its borderline irrational to let that bother me. I know her relationship. I encourage it. BUT she has never, ever made me feel so....inconsequential before. Just like she feels she has to talk to the wife, she should feel like she has to talk to me.

Anyway, Im not happy. I feel that she was insensitive. I know she is busy and I sent her all these loving notes letting her know that I was thinking of her. Wanting to make sure she had a smile and a mental hug because I just KNEW she was missing me as much as I was missing her. Um uh-uh. I didnt even rate a text until I sent her one first. Mid afternoon.

Now I feel like an idiot. Not good.