Today we spent all day blowing up each others cell phones with text messages. Nothing was resolved. The only thing that came fromit was that we know we care for each other, just not enough to make things work between us.
Im past sad about all of this. Its too much. A heart's fragments can shatter only so many times. Whats left of my soul is smaller than a speck of dust. I truly am ready to not even think about all of this mess anymore. If she wants to sex me, we can do that. I don't want to think about how perfect we would be together. Im tired. Sick. Done.
I know she is tired too. This is emotionally exhausting. Its almost to the point where it will just be easier to say screw it. At least I think thats where this is heading. I can't even think about it anymore.
We decided to pick things up where we left off and stop trippin. I will see if we can because there has been a subtle shift in our relationship. Its taken on a more dense substance. We knew that there was emotion and love but now there is a....something. Neither of us wants to let the other go. She does not want to let her girl go, but she loves me now and we are barely getting started. We have happiness together and that is what it is.
Oh man. Too much drama.
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