Keep It Moving

Today's Mood-Blah

Im changing the intro to this blog. I am deleting the part about not being crazy. I am officially insane, just like the rest of these nutty lesbians. Anyone reading the yo-yo of this blog can easily see it, so why deny the facts?

Im feeling so terrible. This flu or whatever is wearing me out. Im trying to keep up a happy face but its so hard. I didnt go to work yesterday, and im only working part of the day today. Im miserable and my bed is calling me.

On to the love stuff. Its fine today, I guess. We talked and decided (again) that we are not ready to let each other go. Its almost comical the way we act. I love her, she loves me. Neither of us is capable of releasing the other. That is rare for me. Im the "cut your losses and run" queen. Im the fastest person in the world at saying "screw this, Im out". Not this time.

I really don't have much to add. Im content loving her and Im guessing she is content to feel the way she feels for me.

This weekend should be a good test for us. I want to see if the drama we have been through has changed our relationship for the worse. Im sick, so I cant phone sex her to death. She is going to be out of touch for the next few days. I wonder if the distance will make her miss me more or if it will push me out of her mind. I don't think so, because I know she has me in her heart.

Im in such a fog, I cant even really focus on the words I need to say. Im going to cut this short and go medicate. Hopefully I will be more insightful later, and I can add more to the blog. Otherwise Im gonna keep it moving and see where the wind blows us.