Hmmmmm......

Mood Swing 2000-Currently not happy

I am so totally just ugh right now. I dont know what to do with this girl. Actually, I do know exactly what to do.

Its time for this thing to screech to a halt.

Basically she told me that I can be her piece of azz. I can know that in her heart she loves me but she cannot show me because I will start to have "unrealistic expectations" of where our relationship is going,

Now, hmmmm. I looked back over everything we have discussed. I have never, ever said that I wanted her to leave her wife. I have never ever said to come to me. I have told her that I love her, I have told her that she is the first person that I truly loved.................ugh angry feelings swamping me but Im cool. Im cool. Im cool.

I told her many, MANY times that if she left her wife I wouldnt want her right away. She would have too much healing to do to come to me all incomplete and incoherent and shyt.

Soooooooooooo

I don't see anywhere that I had an unrealistic expectation because she treated me with love, passion, and extravagance of feelings. I dont see anything that said that I was trying to make it anything more than what it is.

Now....She is the one who admits to making things blow all out of proportion. She is the one who was looking at leaving her home. I talked her out of that tree sooooo many times. We were so happy. Things were perfect between us. But SHE is the one who felt like she was starting to want to make changes. Not me.

So her brilliant solution is to pull back, basically let me be a hot piece of SC azz. Soneone that can stimulate her mentally and physically. But someone willing to settle for scraps of meager affection. I can get tons of orgasms and nasty talk. But the tenderness and consideration-um no. The I love yous, the you complete me's....um hell to the no. And she loves me so much that she is asking me to live like this? wow

Oh I know there would be some love u's and whatnot sprinkled in. I get that. But the passion that made this thing worth doing on my side of the table-buh bye. And I reiterate-she loves me sooooo very much that she feels this is good enough for me.

Ummmmm hell no?